Hate Myself

heerm.. is it a good feeling or bad feeling.. of course.. its not good. isnt it??. heermh..sometimes i feel like i have a lil bit mental problem. hahah.. not crazy but a bit psycho.. .. errmh.. or maybe emotional problem.. why i always have this kind of feeling-hate being me.. can somebody help me?? sometimes im not really myself.. and sometimes i cry for no reasons.. sad for no reasons.. angry for no reasons.. am i normal?? is it me alone who face this kind of problems ?? heem.. how to say.. i try to avoid this kind of feeling.. try so hard..and still trying..but sometimes i lost..even before i started to fight... my childhood memories was not as happy as fairy tales.. that could be one of the reason...maybe.. and perhaps not one of the reasons but major reason.. that explained why im like this..

since i was kid, i just kept all the problems.. not really a problem..but more to how i felt.. my feelings.. my emotions..and usualy sad feelings.. hahha.. lots of sad experiences rather than happy experiences..heemm... sometimes im tired of being me.. am i normal?? or what??

always wish to be someone else.. hahah.. crazy aite..?? .. sounds silly isnt it?? heerm.. what the carp am i writing about?? hukhukhuk... need to stop rite now.. need to change the way im thinking.... my only wish..to be a better me.